It’s Saturday night payday weekend most are out having it large drinking laughing joking center of attention yep that was me happy go lucky the cheeky chappie . Now let’s fast fwd to my reality I’m in my room alone sitting thinking & wondering how much iv changed for the better some would say the old me is not here iv gone away left is the new me the one that’s sensitive and careful not to affend but I’ll easily bend to wot ever trend the humble guy the one that got hurt the one who’s feelings got chucked in the dirt oh yes I’m that guy that fell in love and still waiting to fall out of love I carrie this heavy heart everywhere I go not letting people see how vulnerable I can be but as I sit thinking of u wondering who your talking too or who is texting you making u smile I wonder who gets the texts wow iv just run 12miles who’s sending that text with a kiss and a smile I sit I think I wonder ?
I remember last year saying I can wait not to feel like this … feeling like I was not good enuff and I never was but I really don’t mind now I saw a few things you wrote and by the sounds of things u didn’t look like u was having fun with this at all… One thing I will say is a lot of things makes sense now and hearing u talk of someone else like there who u dream of…
And it’s was this that made me think
Is that how kwik u fall in love I saw your poem it made me sad how you have to beg for the attention you crave from your partner I did this once I walked out on the only person who truly loved me and 10yrs later there’s been enuff girls in that time for me to say yep Hala she did love me only time can tell u. I didn’t mean that much to you I can accept that now and I don’t hate u for it ..it’s wot itis but sometimes we expect to much it we was just happy to have someone to hug u when ur down and tell u ur loved now them things are important
So I guess it’s bk to your list I hope u find it but I can tell u love is not dreamie and perfect it’s anything but..